I have no tolerance

Today I was reminded about my biggest pet peeve. I have absolutely no tolerance or use for people who spend all their time being negative about everything in their life! Today one of my coworkers returned from vacation and anytime someone told her that they were glad she was back, she would respond with something like "I doubt that". I had to go into her office later in the morning and all she did was start griping about how she is expendable and the office runs fine without her. The truth is that a lot of people depend on her for various tasks and the office would be lost without her but no matter how many times you tell her how great she is, she just wants to bitch.

Then she starts talking about how she is going to be the first one laid off (not that anyone is being laid off) because anyone can do her job. I tried to reassure her that in my opinion things happen for a reason and you can't spend all your time dwelling on what could happen. Then I reminded her that she had been talking about going back to school for her master's degree. Her response was "how in the hell am I supposed to afford that?" I mention financial aid and she tells me that she never had to get financial aid when she went to school before because "mommy and daddy paid for it" and she doesn't know anything about it. Keep in mind that she is probably ten years older than I am and still calls her parents mommy and daddy.

I went on to tell her that I had not gotten financial aid either while in school but I know that a lot of people qualify and she wants to know why my parents didn't pay for school. I very hesitantly told her that my father made too much money for me to eligible for financial aid but he did not contribute to my education and that is why I spent twelve years in college, sometimes only taking one class at a time if that was all I had the money for. Then i walked out of her office, pretty irritated.

Everyone has their shit. Things don't usually turn out the way that you thought they would. Life happens and you do what you can to make it work for you. Not to sound pathetic, but there are people in my own family who have said that I was dealt a crappy hand of cards (in my childhood) but I make it a point not to dwell on those things.

I have a fantastic life and don't know that I would change anything from my past if I could. Those crappy things that have happened, made me who I am. There are so many wonderful things in the world that I just can't understand why anyone would choose to be so unhappy. If your life is that depressing, if you hate your job that much, do something to change it!

I have no tolerance for people who want to bitch but aren't willing to doing anything to make changes. It is just like complaining about the presidency when you didn't even bother to vote!

I want to go home....

Colleen, Nola and Willy are in Livingston, Montana tonight on their drive home to Spokane from Georgia. I am so jealous that it is making me itchy! They even ordered dinner from my favorite restaurant! I can picture everything, the restaurant, their hotel, the view. It probably sounds silly, but it is making me very sad and homesick even though it was only my home for one year. Livingston is where my life changed and I finally took control back of my life and figured out what I wanted. It is also where I fell in love with Caleb so it will always be special to me. There is still a part of me that would pack up tomorrow and head back. Caleb says the same thing almost weekly so it seems like there is a good chance that we will end up back there again someday.