Flutters and Dreams

I felt the babies for the first time today! There have been a few times in the last few weeks when I wondered if what I was feeling was a baby moving, but today there was no mistaking it. The only way I can explain it is that it felt like a wave rolling. It started on the right side and moved to the center. Then about a half hour later, I felt it in the center again. I am not sure if I did any work for the rest of the day; I just wanted to feel them again.

Last night I had one of those nights where it feels as if you are having the same dream all night long and no matter how many times you wake up, it just continues every time you go back to sleep. In each dream, I was having an ultrasound to find out the babies sexes and just as the doctor would say "Baby A is a....." I would wake up. This happened six or seven times last night and I woke up so frustrated. I do believe that if I had found out in my dream what the babies sexes are, it would have been accurate. Before we knew we were pregnant, I started having pregnancy dreams and then before we knew we were having twins, i started having twin dreams. I guess we will just have to wait for our next appointment on July 8th.

Our babies

Today I got to see and hear the babies again! They were all over the place, doing somersaults and cartwheels. I still can't believe that they look so much like babies and are still so tiny! I did get reprimanded for NOT GAINING ENOUGH WEIGHT. Everything I have read says that the ideal weight gain in the first trimester for twins is four pounds and since I have gained three and a half, I thought I was doing really well. The doctor actually said "you can't gain enough weight with twins. You better start packing on the pounds". I absolutely do not plan to pack on the pounds, but I can't even figure out how or when I could eat more food. I already feel like I am eating all the time, all day long. Next appointment is in five weeks and we will get to find out what they are!!

Nerves

Today I am 12 weeks pregnant! About a week and a half ago, I had my first appointment with the new doctor. I told her how nervous I have been that I was going to get bad news that day so she said she would check for heartbeats. Sure enough-they were both there loud and clear! I cried almost as much as the day we found out it was twins.

Now I am back to being nervous again. I have not had any serious pregnancy symptoms and it makes me nervous. No nausea, no morning sickness, no headaches. Everything I have read says that the absence of symptoms is not an indication that it will not be a healthy pregnancy, but it is so hard to remember that when you just don't feel pregnant.

For the last five days, I have had some pretty bad cramping. The doctor said not to worry unless I start bleeding which I have not. I weighed myself this morning and have lost 1.5 pounds which just made me more nervous. Once again, I am nervous that at the next appointment, they will give us bad news.

We are almost out of the first trimester and shouldn't have to worry about miscarriage anymore. I just want to feel pregnant!!

Next appointment is June 3.

Happier news

We are having two babies!

Happy news

We are having a baby!!!

Bloomsday Bull*!#@

I swore I would never do it. I never even did it when I lived in Spokane. In fact, my freshman year of high school my mom signed me up for it and sent me downtown by myself on the city bus, of all horrors. When I arrived downtown, I took one look at how many people were there, remembered that it wasn't even eight in the morning on a Sunday and promptly got back on the bus for home and told my mom that I couldn't find the starting line. And now, nineteen years later, when I live on the other side of the country, my best friend (which I am starting to seriously rethink) has convinced me to do Bloomsday with her and her mom. Now I have booked a plane ticket and registered online so I get the pleasure of walking, running or jogging a 12k race with fifty thousand other people! I asked Colleen if we could sign up to be in the stroller section but then a small argument ensued about who had to push the stroller and who got to ride. It is going to be an experience that I just might kill her for. I told her today that I can already hear her in the first mile asking "whose idea was this?" She agreed but added an expletive. I hate people, she hates people and her mom loves everyone. We will make a great team. Then she mentioned something about wearing funny hats. For the love of God, she just might die :)

My day got off on the wrong foot

I had court today for the first time with my new job. I was nervous and excited at the same time. Last night I went shopping so I could buy a blazer to look more professional for court. I even got up earlier than usual so that I could actually do my hair which I don't normally do. Got to work, gathered my files and off I went to meet with the judge and five attorneys. About three hours later, I was leaving the office to grab lunch and start my field visits. As soon as I stepped off the elevator and into the sunshine, I looked down and saw that I was wearing two different shoes!!

I cannot even believe that I did this. I was so embarrassed and immediately called my coworker who had gone to court with me. She, of course, thought it was hilarious. In my defense, I have two pairs of boots that are the same style, different colors. Plus, Caleb was off work today and when I was getting dressed he was still asleep so when I sat down on the bench at the end of the bed to put my shoes on, the lights were off. I totally blame him.

What I don't understand is not how I ended up with two wrong colors, but how I got a left and a right and not two lefts or two rights. My shoes are lined up in my closet by pairs, or so I thought. Luckily I was meeting Caleb at home for lunch so I did change my shoes before doing field visits. However, I remembered that I wore my black boots to work yesterday as well.

Or did I?